"The Sea"

[fiefoe]

<Self and un-self:>

• (What I disliked was) the congeries of affects, inclinations, received ideas, class tics, that my birth and upbringing had bestowed on me in place of a personality. .. I was always a distinct no-one, whose fiercest wish was to be an an indistinct someone.
• We fought in order to feel, and to feel real, being the self-made creatures that we were.
  
• the continuous rehearsal which is my life, with its so many misreadings, its slips and fluffs,
• What I am looking forward to is a moment of earthly expression... I  shall be expressed, totally. I shall be delivered, like a noble closing speech. I shall be, in a word, said.
  

• her burning brow pressed in my palm, full and frail as an ostrich egg
• I had a sense of a general, large, soft settling, as of a sheet unfurling and falling on a bed, or a tent collapsing into the cushion of its own air.
  
• I had that sense of anxious euphoria, of happy, helpless toppling, which the one who knows he will have to do the loving always feels, at the precipitous outset.
  
• There was another reason why she must be kept inviolate, unpolluted  by too much self-knowledge or, indeed, too sharp a knowledge of me. This was her difference. In her I had my first experience of the absolute otherness of other people.
  

Vuillard, Maurice Denis, Gericault, Bonnard, Mitteleuropa, Gilles de Rais, Tiberius,
strangury, parboiled, proscenium, cicatrix, cack-handed, flocculent, bathysphere,
anabasis, littoral, apercus, vulgate,

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